I guess I'm going on a trip, with Asch and Luke. I'm not sure where exactly we're going, but when I talked to Luke about it Spain and Italy came up. Though like he said, Italy could be problematic... *shrug* So I need someone to gather my homework and email it to me or something while I'm gone. Haruhi, think you could do that? And I've got to get the time off work...

Oh, and Axel's coming too. =__=;; Because that won't be a pain in the ass or anything.

...I haven't gotten to see Mar in a while. I've been busy with my job after classes, and he's been busy too I assume. It's really... unpleasant, not seeing him. I don't like it.

Everything's basically the same. I'm bored to hell lately, even with classes and working. Doesn't help that Mar's been busy too, so I haven't been able to see him much. Tch.

Asch, Luke, we need to do something together. Axel too. It's been forever. Think you guys can get away from your father long enough to hang out some?

Asch is still in the hospital. He and Luke's father seems to have deemed it too dangerous for them to be around each other, so he's forbidding them to see each other. Like that's going to happen. Asch is determined as hell to leave the hospital now and go have it out with the man, despite still having a bullet hole in him. I said I'd go talk to their father, but he won't listen. Someone help me keep him in the damn hospital bed until he's not at risk of dying anymore?

That aside, Yaten looked into the modeling thing for me, and the agency is legitimate. Niisan says it's alright as long as I don't "end up like Dante". >>;; So I guess I'll give it a shot. The money seems decent, and it's not full-time so I'd still have time for Mar, my friends, and classes... we'll see how it goes. *shrug*

I saw my social worker the other day. Axel was right, after a while her visits got to be less frequent, and shorter. She must be busy. Not that I'm complaining. I hate having her pry into my life. She already almost ruined things for me once, so the less I see of her the better. She's stopped asking about Mar, too. Though she has suggested a couple of times that I might benefit from seeing a counselor, even though I keep telling her I don't need one. Niisan has also suggested it.

It's been a while since my last swordsmanship lesson. Niisan's been busy though, after what happened with Rufus and everything. I'm hoping to get back into it soon. Niisan, when can I start using Souba, instead of the practice swords? >>;

( Semi-Private (Viewable to Close Friends Only.) )

It's been a while since I wrote in this thing. But the social worker keeps encouraging me to do it, so...

I guess the first thing is that Mar and I are alright again. Everything has been worked out. We have to be extra cautious now, but... I can handle that. And being with him again is good. Somehow everything seems like it will be alright when I am. Gah, I can't believe I'm saying things like that! >//<;;

Last week on my way home from school one day, I was approached by a woman. A talent scout, she said. She gave me her card. She works for a modeling agency. It was kind of surprising. But Niisan has mentioned to me that I should look into getting a job, and she seemed to think I'd do well in modeling. But then again, there are all kinds of scams out there, right? Still, I'm going to look into it...

( Semi-Private (Viewable to Axel Only) )

*on top of everything else lately, now has nail marks and bruises along his throat, and a nasty bite mark on one side of his neck, which is covered by a rather large bandage*

...I'm not going to class today. Or tomorrow. Or possibly ever again. I'll be in my room.

...he says it's for the best... with the social worker and everything... but... fuck... it hurts... more than anything I've ever felt...

I don't think I can deal with this...

EDIT: ...I don't want you guys to say things like that. Don't... make threats and-- just don't. It won't help things. And it's not his fault...

It's my birthday today. Huh. Being a year older doesn't feel any different. *shrug*

Oh. I actually saw Loz yesterday, for the first time in forever. Heh. He hasn't changed, either.

( To my dearest over-protective brothers. >>; )

EDIT: Also, I'm feeling much better now, as if that weren't obvious.

...definitely caught something. I feel utterly crappy. I hope the damn social worker is happy. -__-;

Who wants to bring me some cough syrup and sinus meds?

...I think I'm catching a cold.

I must've picked up a bug from the stupid social worker that was here yesterday. She was around for almost three hours and trying to be all understanding and motherly toward me, while at the same time poking her nose through every nook of the apartment and inspecting my bedroom with a fine-tooth comb. You'd have thought she was looking for explosive devices or something.

I was afraid she'd find some things she shouldn't have. Would have been funny, if I didn't think she'd question Niisan being my guardian because of it.

...apparently I have to deal with her every week for the indefinite future as well. Great. -__-;

( Private (hackable; strikeout viewable only to close friends/family) )

A couple nights ago, when Niisan was poking fun at me, and managed to drag about six other people into it, Chrono actually came to my rescue and let me stay at his place for the night. Thank God. Chrono is someone I somewhat knew from school, he sits in front of me in homeroom, we were kind of aquaintences. Now we're friends. Haha. Though apparently his father thinks Niisan is molesting me or something now. We should probably set that straight before rumors start. >>;

Note for Dante: Throw a used condom at me, and I swear, somehow I WILL GET YOU BACK.

...my birthday is coming up on the 26th. I normally wouldn't have even remembered, except that Niisan mentioned his a little while ago. I don't think I've celebrated a birthday since I was ten... for various reasons. Not counting when I went out with Kairi to celebrate uncelebrated ones or something like that. Ah well...

ASDGHKIDGHSDUGBDJGBUEWRILGHUAILSHFDKSHGS;KL!! >___<;;

GODDAMMIT I HATE YOU PEOPLE. Except for Chrono.

[ooc: For those of you who are confused as to why everyone is picking on Kadaj~ it all stems from the conversation between Seph and Asch here. ♥]

*FACEPALM* I'm not listening to that for another whole night.

SOMEONE LET ME STAY WITH THEM TONIGHT. ANYONE. ><;;

I guess congradulations on working things out with Yaten, Niisan.

I'm feeling much better now. Heh. I just panicked a bit at first, but... ahh, anyway...

I'm still organising my room here at the new place. I don't know why it's taking me so long, it's not as if I have a ton of stuff. *shrug* Guess I've just been distracted. Luke, you promised to come over and help when I was doing it! ...though I guess you've got Asch to worry about. *sigh*

By the way. Asch, you're an idiot. There, I said it. XP

Oh, and I went over to visit Mar on Friday. It was nice, I don't get to see him as much as I'd like to. Maybe now that the trial's over and everything, though...

Mm. Speaking of... I should go visit Kaasan and Loz. I haven't seen them pretty much since all this started, since Tousan was still staying at the house. I miss them, and I'm worried about them. I'm sure neither of them are taking this whole thing well...

...also, Niisan says I should get a job. -__-; I had some money that Kaasan had put aside for me, but it wasn't much and it's pretty much gone now. I suppose he's probably right. But still. ><;

...Mar, let me come work with you at the flower shop! >D

It's almost 6am, and I can't sleep. I don't know why, it's just...

Yesterday. The ruling came back yesterday. From the trial... guilty. Tousan was found guilty.

I didn't think... I was preparing myself to hear that he got off from the charges. I really thought that... I know Niisan said he wouldn't let it happen, but I... I really did think I'd have to go back. I thought I wouldn't have a choice...

But now they said he's guilty, and...

I think I'm panicking. I'm actually-- I'm free, and I don't know what to do about it. I mean, these last few months living with Niisan have been great, but I never thought it'd really last. I wanted it to, of course... ah... but...

Wh-what am I going to do with myself? With my life? I hadn't thought I'd have the chance...

Heh... haha... I think I might be a little hysterical here... *deep breaths* Okay... yeah... this is good. Great. Haha. Hah. Definitely. It calls for celebration... when I can breathe normally again.

I think I'm hyperventilating... .__.

Niisan's upset about something. Really upset. He keeps pacing and muttering to himself. Even Silver is avoiding him, she's been in my room all night.

We were supposed to get word about the trial today, but I'm kind of afraid to ask right now. I guess I'll just lay low for the time being until he calms down. At least now if I'm shut up in my room like this it's somewhat voluntary. >>;

( Heh. )

... XDDD;;

This weekend is going to be... long. It started today, I had dinner with Haruhi, and then went to that party for Axel that Mar threw. ♥ Niisan wouldn't let me stay over, but he somewhat compromised by letting me stay until 1am. Pfft. Killjoy. Anyway, he picked me up and we just got back home so I guess I'm going to bed. Alone. D:

Mar, sorry I couldn't stay and help you clean up. I really had kind of intended to. I'll make it up to you, I promise! We should do something together soon, it's been forever. ~♥

Then tomorrow, I'm going out somewhere with Kairi. I'm not really sure where. Something about celebrating missed birthdays? Haha. It'll be interesting. Then I have to pack because Niisan and I are moving tomorrow night and Sunday. >.<; Someone kill me now.

...at least when we move to the new place I'll have my own room and my own bed. Luke~! You can finally come over and help me organize. ♥ Asch can come too if he wants, since he and Niisan seem to be buddies now. >>; I haven't had a chance to hang out with you guys in a long time, so at least it's an excuse for that.

Well, on his time off Niisan and I managed to find a new apartment. It's much bigger and I can have my own room again. I'm not sure when we'll be moving in though... I guess probably after the end of the trial. I think it's wrapping up now... *sigh*

He also started teaching me swordsmanship a bit. Now that Niisan's back at work I'm not sure how often I'll get lessons, but it's fun anyway. I'm already sick of practice swords though. It'll be nice when I can have my own and not use crappy wooden ones. >>;

Oh, and Axel came to pick Kit up a few days ago. Silver seems to miss her, she's been super affectionate since the foxy left. It's almost cute. I'm still wary andhalf-expect her to go back to being homicidal toward me within a day or two.

Axel, do you want me to bring your present over tonight or tomorrow~?

Still getting used to Silver not loathing me. I wonder if she'll still tolerate me when Kit goes back to Axel's place. One can only hope. -.-; Though I could do with not waking up covered in cat and fox hair every morning.

This next while Niisan actually has time off. He says he's going to start teaching me swordsmanship soon. And we're supposed to go look at apartments on Thursday, this one is too crowded and I want my own room. Plus Niisan wants his room back too. Mm~ and Yazoo and I are going to get together sometime soon too. ♥

I've kind of missed spending time with them... I wish I could get ahold of Loz too. I haven't taked with him in forever.

( Semi-Private (Viewable to Asch and Luke only) )

Axel's gone out of town for a while... a couple weeks I guess. No big deal as long as he doesn't get his ass kicked again. Anyway, I'm taking care of Kit while he's gone. Niisan even said I could keep her at the apartment, though he was worried she might eat his cat. >>;

Pfft. Eat his cat indeed. Kit's been here for less than two days and she's all buddied up with her. -.-; That cat really dislikes me, and I swear she plots against me, and now she's turning the fox against me too I bet. ...or possibly Kit is turning her. (I can only hope.) This morning I woke up with them both on the pillow next to me. Fox tail doesn't taste particularly good. I'm not really sure what to think about that. But I guess if she keeps Silver from murdering me in my sleep, it's a good thing.

...

Haruhi, if you're still not feeling well I'll bring you more soup later. I'll show you the website too, I've got it mostly done for now I think. *shrug* Nothing fancy, but it's about the best I can do. I warned you I'm not great at webcoding and stuff.

Also YAZOO. You know Kuja?! I demand you never speak to him again! >__<;;

EDIT: Hey, Mar. We haven't really done anything since you got back, have we? This weekend, if you've got the time, do you want to get together? Even if you're busy at work, I could stop by and help out at the shop or something...? ♥♥

[ooc: Seph was still calling the kitten Silver, wasn't he? Or had he picked a new name for it?]